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have you woke up feeling like a retard? have u woke up feeling like a retard and looking like a retard? I had a horrible morning. a pretty itchy one too. I woke up this morning, to notice that both my eyes are swollen. yea. u cannot see my pupil sadly. u can only see a line. and two bluge. urgh. I look like a COMPLETE FREAK ( this is normally the part where Kar Yee will go : u always look like a complete freak)

Life didn’t get any better when U’re trying to study on how the British dominates Malaysia over and over again wiv a blardee itchy eye. scratching makes it worse. but. OhhhHH the temptation. the sastisfaction. the OoooOOooooOoo. ohkay. I’ll skip the boring part.

During Piano lessons, i can barely see the notes. TRUST ME> swollen eyes sux. I ended up in the docotr, complaining and bitching. oh well. the docotr didn’t seem too pleased with my tone. but heck. screw it.

GOd. MY EYES ARE ITCHY>>>>!!!!!

thank god. today is Saturday. no exams today. thank god.

I AM:a human. a girl. a pain in the butt. a freak. a friend. a shoulder to lean on. a daughter. a sister. a bibolo* (no. its not what u’re thinking)

I SAID: I’ll screw the world. Screw them before they screw u. 
I WANT: the world to be a happier place. more shopping malls. more cash. more ice cream. freedom. more sleep. and a life.

I WISH: I’m shopping right now. and all exam papers caught on fire and the school decided that it’s too troublesome to get another mid year examination done so its cancel and everyone gets a nice sundae ice cream with a strawberry on top. =D
I HATE: I hate hate. get the idea? if u dun. owh well.
I HEAR: my sis. and my mum. and the keyboard

I WONDER: what the world will be like 20 years from now..

I REGRET: for all the time I’ve spent on regretting when I should have just move on.
I AM NOT: a vegeterian though I’ve tried to be one

I DANCE: like no one’s watching. like the world’s dancing with me.

I SING: in the shower. and everywhere I go. =D ( partner in crime : kar Yee)
I AM NOT ALWAYS:patient. patiece has its own limit. but mine isn’t very far. xD
I MADE: my life a living melody.
I WRITE: the way i want to. screw formats.

I CONFUSE: myself.all the time. and i confuse other people too. =3
I NEED: more money.
I SHOULD: be studyin now.
I START: seeing things from different points of veiw and wondering. " I still don’t get it! "

I FINISH: not much. I don’t usually finish up the stuffs I’ve started

I BELIEVE: in fate.
I KNOW: that one day. ants are going to take over. I just know it.
I CAN: laugh and cry at the same time and not feel like a total weirdo. I can be pissed off and smile at u and make u feel hopless when I’m in a horrible offended mood.
I CAN’T: whistle. sadly.
I SEE: nice shoes. nice bags. nice clothes. sadly. i see no money. I nid cash.

I BLOG: Isn’t it obvious? I blog because I’m bored.
I READ: whatever that comes into my hand when I’m bored.
I AM AROUSED BY: the rain. god. make it rain now

IT PISSES ME OFF: people act the way they’re not.

I FIND: myself staring at space all the time
I LIKE: daydreaming. it escapes me from reality.
I LOVE: alot of things. that is impossible to be listed down.

this week happens to be the horror, the nightmare, the AahhhHHhhhh week of all students. exam week. mid year examination. *shudders*

Except from all the books. papers. butt pains. 20 cups of coffee. whole day of pin drop silence. sittin no where near normal people. then. everything’s just fine. haha.

You know, its amazing how u can actually see the true self of a person during exam week. take this for example.I wus asking a friend of mine ( name not gonna reveal to protect the innocent: me. ) about sum stuffs. she looked up her book.practically read the whole thing and gave me an answer with this look dat says " listen to me. I’m bloody sure"  and she’s pestering me not to check my book. owh well. i’m naive enough not to check. then.this other friend of mine word of advise : dun listen to what the smart people tell u. never do that. I wus way to naive. these people are dangerous. or maybe I’m just too urgh this week.

-being panaroid and annoyed-

Quote : Kh owns me - Boopla

Today is. a total omgod. I wus kinda late and made my mum rushed to school. and she wus nagging AAllLLLll the way. No. its worse then nagging. its practically lecturing. a 15 minutes lecture right early in the morning. when u can’t bloody find ur shoelaces. and hafta rush into the damn car. yea. a bloody 15 minutes non stop lecture. i mean. non stop. non stop.

Oh. seriously. my Friday 13th didn’t end here. i got to school. went to 2siantan. and out of nowhere, Derrick took his friend’s bottle. I think its his friend’s or whoever la. and squeezed it infront of me. the bottle is a nike bottle that cost 48 bux and u can alwayz c ppl playing with it. oh. and NORMALLY. the bottle will only squirt out a very lil amount of water. or maybe jz plain air. But its damn different this morning. I got Splashed right in the face. MY whole face wus bloody wet. and my front wus bloody wet too. u can imagine how pissed and akward I felt. and. I wasn’t having a gOod morning apparently. so. Without thinking ( who wud nid to think in this kinda situation) I grab the nearest bottle near me. which is a mineral bottle. and splashed it into his face. RIGHT IN HIS FACE. damn. he missed it. but oh well. it wet half of his shirt. dai sei.

oh. wait. I’m not done. after dat. I got to know from Zhiling dat i have to find out all the members’s phone number from my patrol. and yea. I hafta rush to 1ang. to find bloody samuel. and ask him to find all the members. hey. he’s the leader ok. I’m jz an advisor. JZ helping ok. so. I volunteered to find all form 2s members. as I’m in form 2 and it’ll make my work way way way easier too. so. I got my list. and found out that there’s this gal call yin wei. who i dunno what class she’s in. so I asked arond. and Thank god. i found out. so. I got the info dat she’s in bloody 2siantan. and yea. I rushed to 2siantan. damn it. they’re havein KH. and this bloody guy told me that she is in Bilik jahitan. I rushed down. and found out that that girl is in 2 ang. like HOW STUPID is dat. i could have gotten her number easily. bloody guy who told me she’s in 2siantan. damn it.

I’ll never in a million years believe this. but I am black. well. kind of. the kind of milo add with coffee kinda look. okok. u get the picture.

main factors: -the sun.

and basically. the sun.

I’m a scout. and hell yeah am I proud to be one. Sportsday is SooOooo coming near. and oh yea. we are SO gonna win this thing. (i hope.) what the heck. this is my blog. Why the heck do i feel so restricted in here? this is a place for me 2  open up. ok. so I’ll be opening up here.

bottomline : I have 0% confidence. 0. zilch. in winning thiz thing. wait. maybe I do have . okok. cut that. cut that. make that 10% confidence. yea. 10. I mean. seriously. we do train hard. but maybe not hard enough despite us being black enough. But oh well. words of encouragement. *or how u spell it. " I believe we can do it. " blah.

second thing. Price of petroleum hike AGAIN? like yeesh. We’re talking 30 cents here. 30 cents are alot. for petroleum. According to our ever Beloved prime minister, the hike is to encourage people to use public transportation. PURleese. think of all the cases that had happened coz of Public transportation. yeesh. 30 cents. 30. oh ya. letz not forget about our mee and teh tarik. 30 cents.

I better stop here before I start cursing the government.

Perjalanan hidupan

Kenalilah diriku, wahai Tuhan

Selidiklah hati terdalamku

Lihatlah ribuan kebimbangan menatapku

Dibuatlah aku resah dalam duniaku

Apakah kemampuanku, Tuhan

Kekuatan apa yang aku miliki?

Semuanya kegagalan telah kutelankan,

Semua kesalahan telah aku sembunyi.

Teriakan hati suaraku mereka lupakan

Tangisan piluku tidak dapat perhatian.

Buatlah telinga mereka terdengar, Tuhan

Buatlah mata mereka terlihat, Tuhan

Hatiku dibuka memahami kehidupan

Mataku terbuka melihat kebenaran

Tenaga disimpan dalam tubuhku untuk menjuang,

Hatiku telah tersimpan cahaya kehangatan.

Seakan warna-warni pelangi menghinggapiku

Terasa diriku termusnah dari kegelapan duniaku.

Hikmat Tuhan menyelami dalam fikiran dan hatiku

Seakan tanpa batas mengembara.

Aku berjuang untuk satu matlamat,

Harapan ku berjaya dalam hidupku,

Tidak akan aku berputus asa

Selagi nya aku mencapai destinasiku.

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Life’s a bitch somtimes. 2006. not a good start. For people in my class and For sensitive and perasan people, you may find this post offensive. so stop reading here. don’t say i din warn u.

My class is one of most boring class I’ve ever been to. imagine this. You’re sitting in the cinema watching a show that you don’t freakin understand and everyone is laughing at the show n you tried n tried but you still don’t get it. THat. is exactly how it went. life can be a bitch somtimes. my class is full of people that have tons of knowledge but won’t frekin share it. they are selfish. well. not all. but SOMe. no. i won’t reveal anything.

ok. next. friends. yea. right. we all need friends. haha. 2006. itz a new start. which means like. yea. new friends. that sux. no kidding. speacially when your close friends doesn’t like you being around your new friends. I mean. helllOo. how pathetic can THAT be!?!??!! life’s a bitch. I said that twice and I’ll continue saying it till the end of this post. okay. People been complaining to me that I’ve been leaving them out and saying that I’ve turn into a total ass. People who are my friends, did i mention? URGH. pls la. For GOD sake, I’m not your dog. what are you expectin, I come to find you every single blardee minute? Do i look like your blardee dog or sumthin? life’s a bitch.

I got into one of the worst and selfish class that you could have even imagine and I have friends who think I’m their dog. damn. life’s a bitch.

I wanna continue. but I have piano now. which i practically hate the blardee pieces. and I gtg. so. I’ll end here till I find another moment whr I feel like updating this. again.

* this post may be offensive. but like I said. I warned u.

have a nice day. =]

itz been a seriously whacky week this week. like urgh. blaaah.

I am NOT looking forward to valentine. yeesh.

I am So High these days.

I am still high now.

n damn it. I jz feel like updating this.

itz been a seriously whacky week this week. like urgh. blaaah.

I am NOT looking forward to valentine. yeesh.

I am So High these days.

I am still high now.

n damn it. I jz feel like updating this.